The apricot people

The apricot people are like weather in Brussels. You can't miss them but you can love-hate them and in a way you may be one of them without even realizing. 

When the sun is out in Brussels even the apricot people smile and transform for as long as the sun lasts. The apricot people are interesting, they can disappear for a long while from your life like the sun does in Brussels and when you lose hope and you are ready to move on, they appear and their love is stronger than ever, motivating you to live your life 100% and more, because tomorrow  they might disappear again with no warning.

You say over and over that you will avoid and let go of any apricot person in your life but somehow you find yourself back where you started and you give another chance. 

Personally, I had a few apricot people in my life so far, living and spending time with them is like being above anyone and anything, a different world.  I liked my apricot people infinitely but I remember one in particular.

This one had such a big impact on me that I became myself an apricot person making other feel above anything and anyone. Coming in and out , fading and disappearing, loving strongly till I couldn't even live without intensity in my life, till there was nothing anymore, till I didn't know myself anymore. But then the next day, I managed to wake up, change my life and not be left undone. I don't hate my apricot people but I can't live with them in my life either.

Always ending up to be a toxic relationship, a hole in soul instead of making my soul whole. No more black and white, grey makes sense also now. But still..there are days when I feel shot down and there is a hole in my soul and everything feels left undone till the sun comes out and I remember to smile and all of my flaws go away. 

Bastille - Flaws ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTkY42wqMkU )