“In times like this I don’t want to be a superstar”…. as I was walking on the streets of London in a sunny day going towards nowhere,I lost myself in the crowds, noises …Music is something that always, no matter what, gives me smiles, patience, understanding, cause I find bits of myself in the lyrics ….James Blunt came next on my play list with the song ‘Superstar’ and suddenly I stopped walking.. I tend to write down things that makes sense,( thing that is transformed sometimes in what is called spoken poetry) and that later on will open my mind and this song had something I was looking for in that time, meaning.
I remember when I was 7 and I was at the seaside for the first time in my life, amazing feeling. The beach was almost empty in the morning and the sun was shining…Empty space in my heart also, but a lot of dreams and ideas in my mind.. I remember running and embracing waves, jumping all over and smiling like crazy, no reason at all. I didn’t know much about myself than, I was just starting to, but what I did know was who I wanted to become, and no is not a superstar but a stewardess, as we call them now. I wanted to be close to the moon, sun and stars all day and night long, but in times like these that’s not who I want to be either.
Are you who you wanna be ?
I want to walk through life with an open mind and open hands and put the things that I know to be true in front of me and create moments of magic for me and for people in my life. I want to put STAR in START OVER, I want to fill my backpack called life with ‘everywhere else I’ve been and seen ’ , to dive into unknown , help people fight the wars they’re hiding behind the smiles..
We try our best to find us but there are no lights to guide us, piece by piece we build up and with every heart beat we realize we’re so far gone.. Money don’t get you the truth and love costs a lot more and most of the time the answers we get are not the ones we are looking for…
So far I’m trying to tell stories that only I, can tell. I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about these stories. The story of my life is building up, my hope in a bottle. I don’t have a right way to tell it and I don’t know if a blog post, a short movie, a book, will tell it right. Most of the time I am myself lost thinking if I am in its beginning, middle or end and I am thinking if by the time I will get to the end of this blog post I’ll have it figured all out, or not.
I heard a lot lately the word “impossible” and I don’t know myself what to do with it, but I see it every day and I am thinking to maybe start laughing in its face and say impossible is nothing. When we meet people “ we are no longer part of their future, we start step by step to become part of their past , but in those instances we get to share their present and they to share ours and that is the greatest present of all “ , I wish we would cherish it more.
“I am dancing with a broken heart, there is no doctor that can make it stop and these are the words that I will never say again.. “ and you can stay there, waiting for a rainy day..or go out and build your future bright even if you are not a superstar, you matter!
Nico
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