Lately , I have discovered more and more places, cultures, people , that have been my mirror , showed me who I am in different moments, and the reflection is amazing , almost perfect. The conclusion is that I changed lives , or at least I left a strong impact through education so that now they are more certain about what they want to do next. I love my life and even if I have ups and downs I can always be me and at the end of the day not to regret it.
Recently I received a song from a friend, Alina Alens and I really liked the lyrics :
" Strenght comes slowly, So pick up yourself and fight, Till the end of I can't , Till the end of I 'm sorry , Till the end of I don't know you anymore".
I just have some questions: are we fighting till the end of something ? Do we need to fight to be ok, to be who we are, to get something? Is it believing enough or we need to prove us ? And if we don't succeed should we give in or give up ?
Recently I received a song from a friend, Alina Alens and I really liked the lyrics :
" Strenght comes slowly, So pick up yourself and fight, Till the end of I can't , Till the end of I 'm sorry , Till the end of I don't know you anymore".
I just have some questions: are we fighting till the end of something ? Do we need to fight to be ok, to be who we are, to get something? Is it believing enough or we need to prove us ? And if we don't succeed should we give in or give up ?
Moving to another subject , I realized that where I am now , personal and professional in this moment of my life , it is the right moment. It feels right, it is conected to what I want and what I feel comfortable about. But at the end of the day I have a dillema : when I close the computer , I am alone, almost all I have build is online, all the rest, is out there in other countries and yes at the end of the day , I am alone.
That great reflection that changed and will change so many lives from now on , that awesome friend and beautiful person, that person that is like a breath of fresh air is afraid of being alone. It is my biggest fear and I am asking myself: should I give in or give up ? I am losing friends and winning knowing other people from different places and at the end of the day I am alone. The last friend I lost was because I was honest, but honest in my own way.
And I have something to tell you A , even if I don't know if you will ever read this : Maybe I lost my trust in you to tell you some things, But I didn't lose all my trust. Maybe I lost my trust in you to tell you some things , but I would never give up on you, as a friend. Run away , if this makes you be ok, but don't come back, it doesn't make me,feel ok, I am not to be borrowed. I am who I am , I come with a package, take it or leave it, don't borrow it. I don't cheat on my dreams and I don't cheat on my friends. I stay and I fight and I face whatever it is. Stay and fight or never come back, I am not to be borrowed.
And if I know something good about myself is that I will never give up on my friends and you are my friend, I never had expectations and past was past, never conected it to the present and neither should you. It is hard to lose someone and close the door , but time makes you get used to it and unfortunately it doesn't close the gaps but it makes them bigger, what starts in chaos , ends in chaos .
That great reflection that changed and will change so many lives from now on , that awesome friend and beautiful person, that person that is like a breath of fresh air is afraid of being alone. It is my biggest fear and I am asking myself: should I give in or give up ? I am losing friends and winning knowing other people from different places and at the end of the day I am alone. The last friend I lost was because I was honest, but honest in my own way.
And I have something to tell you A , even if I don't know if you will ever read this : Maybe I lost my trust in you to tell you some things, But I didn't lose all my trust. Maybe I lost my trust in you to tell you some things , but I would never give up on you, as a friend. Run away , if this makes you be ok, but don't come back, it doesn't make me,feel ok, I am not to be borrowed. I am who I am , I come with a package, take it or leave it, don't borrow it. I don't cheat on my dreams and I don't cheat on my friends. I stay and I fight and I face whatever it is. Stay and fight or never come back, I am not to be borrowed.
And if I know something good about myself is that I will never give up on my friends and you are my friend, I never had expectations and past was past, never conected it to the present and neither should you. It is hard to lose someone and close the door , but time makes you get used to it and unfortunately it doesn't close the gaps but it makes them bigger, what starts in chaos , ends in chaos .
So here I am , this reflection in your eyes now, you those that are reading, discovering myself more and more , chasing dreams and paying sometimes too much for them, now in the need of stability and bear hugs and kind words to be back and be strong.
You out there , learn from today , because if you don't learn from today how will you face tomorrow ?
Kind regards,
Nico
Kind regards,
Nico
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